Can't Think of a title =D

Alive

2004-12-21T10:10:32Z

Ok.... since jess apparently thought i was dead....shes making me write...stuff here. whatever
so! if case anyone cared...college sucks, cuz apparently residents think commuters have contagious diseases, so they won't talk to us...but it doesn't matter because commuters KNOW that residents have contagious diseases...ie.STDs...so we don't talk to them, and everyone hates the classes.
Me and kevie are still together..yayy... i bet no one saw that coming? good thing too or my friggin picture thingy wouldn't make any sense. so everything is great between us... i love him he loves me my family loves him his family loves me... etc. cept his sister, i have a feeling christina would disembowel me given the chance. but whatever. Kevin is going with me to Texas in january. I get him a digital camera for christmas...he needs it for school... those things are fucking expensive.
anyway, merry christmas... and i fucking missed chanukkah...sorry lauren. so i'll prolly be around...sooo yea..
bye

uhh...

2004-07-31T03:41:26Z

i'm really bored....
so lemme tell you wants happened in the past couple of weeks...
i went to maryland with kevin and his family, there were ponies, it was cool...
then i went to texas, but it sucked, because my grandma back in jersey got diagnosed with ovarian and liver cancer while i was in texas...
and died almost immediately upon my arrival back to jersey...
so... diagnosed on wednesday... died of cancer of saturday... sucks... no?
so thats about it... having a really bad week... kevin came back from europe and was COMPLETELY different...
he was disrespectful, rude, dirty.... etc etc...i didn't like it
...i hate europe... what happened to my kevie?

tattoo

2004-06-22T19:05:36Z

i got a tattoo... woohoo... go me
oh yeah, its a shamrock... woohoo go irish

....opps!

2004-04-24T15:50:39Z

haven't updated, oh well =/
yesterday kevin hit me with a water bottle ouch, bruises suck.. parents hate him, bad stuff

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you any.

Spring Break

2004-04-08T19:49:25Z

School was worthless today.... absolutely and totally worthless.... we did nothing in every class. And the whole time i was dying because my throat apparently hates me. Actually, so does my nose... it has been just dripping blood for the past couple of days, i don't think thats very healthy, but i don't think my family cares... hmmm.
Spring Break is gonna be busy, i have a lot of doctors appointments, i have work... and a couple tennis matches i wanna go watch (yay kevie =) )
I'm so lazy, hahaha

baychuks @ 2004-04-01T11:10:00

2004-04-01T04:12:56Z

i stabbed myself in a vein in my arm, there was blood everywhere, it made me scared. maybe i'll never do it again...
Therapists suck, i hate them, they tell me i need to get a job to keep my mind busy so i dont have time to kill myself, i just suggested my parents get me a puppy, its like a full time job, but they insisted on the old fashioned way. Kevin = not happy about this, he told McDonalds he could only work on weekends so he could see me everyday, and now i'll be working... fucking therapists, maybe i'll get lucky and my job will only make me work from 2-6 when kevin has tennis...when i even get a job. i have a 4 day weekend, sweet...

sucks..

2004-03-25T04:32:31Z

today sucked like whoa... had this chem quiz, that i totally would have rocked if i wasn't crying the whole time...i mighta still rocked it, i dunno. Tomorrow is gonna suck too, i have a bunch of tests, teachers should like, talk to eachother so you don't have more than 2 tests on the same day. or have like a designated test day for each subject. I have to buy a prom bid... it suxors cuz both me and kevie are like... kinda not having any money right now, sooo oops. when are bids on sale till?
I don't really have anything else to talk about, cept that therapists suck, because they can't do shit to help. they can "talk" to you, but hell, i could talk to like.. ariel.. or jess... or isa... or anyone that i'm close with and get the same results, so wtf am i paying her for?
Ever since i stopped going to tennis practice, Kevin has been playing like crap... ahahha.. he says he needs me there to play well, sucks for him.
i'm gonna sleep... sleep rocks.

Yawn

2004-03-21T19:27:52Z

yesterday wwas pretty cool... Kevin was suppose to come pick me up at 1, but he came at like 12:20... that bastard, oh well. so his sister was having this engagement party yesterday, because shes engaged, or something. She didn't really want me there, i think she hates me, i don't know why.. oh well. So i went anyway, cuz kevin wanted me there, obviously, and so did all of kevins little cousins. At first it was kind of gay. all of kevins little cousins, like.. 10 and under all went of his trampoline, and all the older cousins, which are all boys... decided to throw snow balls at eachother... how mature.. right? Kevin used me as a shield knowing that none of the other guys would throw snowballs at me... except jeff! grrr... hes like 15, and a freshman, and hes pretty cool, and he threw a snowball at me, and then kevin kicked his ass.. ahahahah. So then we went inside to play video games. lets see... it wass... me, kevin, jeff, jeffs brother matthew, john, and steve... i think.. all of kevins cousins were impressed at my video game skills.. bwhahaahaha. We played MOH for like... 5 straight hours, me and john were kicking ass against kevin and jeff. we played another game too... some star wars game, lol... but it was some kind of conquest thing, and me and kevin kicked everyones ass. and then all of kevins cousins left, and me and him just played a couple MOH missions, it was cool. Oh did i mention that kevin was SUPPOSE to have work yesterday? he just never went, isn't that cute?
I have nothing to do today, isn't that also cute?

i win?

2004-03-19T05:11:19Z

so, yea Ortiz is still gay.. but who didn't already know that? Since he can't make fun of me anymore, hes now decided to start harassing me with progress reports and probably detentions, asshole...

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I win

GRR

2004-03-16T22:30:43Z

Ok, so, lately i've been having a couple problems, which is gay, but what pisses me off more, is that people have suddenly been caring. People who would normally give a shit about me, are like.. aww amy, whats wrong? are you ok? and i wanna punch them in the face and be like, where the hell did i EVER MATTER TO YOU? i mean, some people are caring, and i appreciate it, because they're my friends, like carol and jess and ariel, they all care, but its justified, they've never not cared. but suddenly people like jeff toth suddenly decide they wanna give me hugs and try and talk to me like they know? that just kinda pisses me off. wanna know what else pisses me off? mr ortiz making fun of me and mocki8ng me, when i obviously don't need it. fuck him... wanna know what else pisses me off? kevin is off from work, and tennis is cancelled, and for some reason i haven't hung out with him AT ALL today..... maybe i'll give him a break because its snowing

ER

2004-03-14T05:09:11Z

Never go to the ER, i just spent 5 hours there...
everyone looks busy but nothing gets done

i would do one of those cute nickname things, but i've never had any

Moo!

2004-03-10T23:26:08Z

I'm so bored right now... and i haven't updated in a good long while, fun stuff. Eh, i've been kinda .. really... pissed off in the past few days at my AP Chem teacher, Dr. A for many reasons. Like a good 50% of the class is failing, and we're the smart ones. (note AP=advanced placement) its not fair =/ i had a 92 in cp chem, how do i do so bad in this clasS? and its not even that i can't handle an AP course, i handled AP bio AP history and am currently handling AP math just fine, with good grades. Its not like i don't attempt to study ( which is nearly impossible, its hard to study things you've never been taught) Its not that i can't really handle it, i pulled off a
B when she taught, but lately she hasn't been teaching us anything. Shes been teaching us one 2 page section out of a 50 page chapter and then testing us on the whole thing, expecting us to just learn the other 48 pages on our own. it wouldn't be such a big deal if the book wasn't so confusing, its almost impossible to make sense of anything. And if you ask her about it? she'll contradict it, or give us information that turns out to be wrong. Yesterday we were discussing the relation between boiling points and vapor pressure, and how non volatile solutes affects it, so Dr. A goes, well once i saw a chef say on TV that if you add salt to water it lowers the boiling point. Can you believe that? a chef... on TV... apparently applies to AP chem!! lol the funny part is, the chef was wrong, because adding a nonvolatile solute raises the boiling point... ahahah. fun. i hate that class. i hate that teacher.
Anyway, i'm done ranting about that. Today me and ari went to kevies tennis practice and walked around and made fun of a bunch of people, and ate BBQ chips.. yum it was freezing as all... uhh frozen hell. so we sat in my car with the heat on ahahah. And then i drove neil home and yup, i ended up here.

Arg!

2004-03-05T04:43:31Z

THERE IS NO A IN MY LAST NAME!!! they spelled my name wrong on the big volleyball chart with the names of my team, because we rock and we won.. etc. so i hung out with kevin today, he didn't forget to come back after he went to his house for a while.. it was cool. it sucks that HSPAs are over, i was having fun missing scorndinskys and ortizs class.. it made me happy. plus the extra 2 hours of sleep i got every morning? i needed it. tomorrow i think we only miss 1st and maybe part of 2nd. which means i have to see ortiz, which means i'll prolly have a physics test, which makes me generally unhappy. oh well.. i'll just deal with it muahahah.... *yawn* i have nothing to do tomorrow..how exciting

pissed off

2004-03-04T02:45:33Z

Yea so my volleyball team won the tournament, was awesome.. but now i'm just pissed off. Kevin came back to my house after the tournament, and fell asleep for 2 hours... when he wakes up he was like, i'm hungry i'm leaving to go eat, i was like.. uhh ok.. figuring he would come back... but nope, never came back. couldn't he have at least TOLD me he wasn't gonna come back? so i wouldn't have sat around waiting for him to come back? whatever... i just won't hang out with him tomorrow
and i'm also really pissed because i have to get up at 6 on saturday for some GAY ASS RUTGERS thing... its not even mandatory, its just that my dads gay.. and doesn't understand that i don't sleep during the week and normally i get all my sleep on the weekends
i hate this >=(

Fire =D

2004-02-29T19:57:02Z

Heart of Fire

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yup, that seems about right... it just screams sex addict...

Boredom

2004-02-28T15:13:35Z

This weekend is going to be really boring... grrrr..kevin has work all day on both days. Kevin also had work from 2 to 10:30 yesterday, which sucked... but i had his mom pin my prom dress and shes going to do alterations for me,isn't that cute? hooray. So i was hanging out with kevins parents for like an hour after he left for work... ewwww. But his mom kept talking about how much she loved sam dooley, which kinda bothered me, because now i think she'll never like me as much . oh well... i told kevin that and he got all pissed off, it was cool. wow i woke up at 9:30 this morning, i got up early, whats wrong with me?

Prom Dress

2004-02-26T00:32:41Z

Wooo.. so i got my prom dress today =D yay... its actually the color i said i WASN'T going to wear its fuschia...sooo if u wanna see what it looks like go to www.davidsprom.com and click on dresses... mine is on the 4th page, the only dark pink one ....looks really nice... got shiny crystal jewelry, also looks really nice. The thing i love about davids bridal is how they take your name and the style of your dress down and what town your from so if someone else from your town comes in and wants the same dress they won't let them buy it. so no one is going to have my dress, which is reassuring. It needs a couple alterations, but since my boyfriends mom is a seamstress... i can get them done for free... yipee =D i love kevins mom, shes so cute.
Anyway, i hate George W. Bush so much right now and for so many different reasons. I don't understand how anyone could be so against gay marriages, honestly. They're still people.. and should still have rights. I was brought up as a liberal though, my aunt jackie is gay, and i always knew she was. They never hid it from me, not even when i was like 3, i was brought up knowing it was completely and totally normal. I never ever had a problem with it, or thought it was weird, and i love my aunts partner, lisa, so much. Shes a part of my family jsut as much as any of my other aunts or uncles. in fact shes my favorite "uncle" and aunt jackie is my favorite aunt. I honestly think every kid should be exposed to the fact that some people are gay, so they don't grow up to think its weird or abnormal. And if you want to hear what i think about George W. Bushs backing of the amendment to the constitution... visit rewind2482 Because he says it all. Very well put Michael, you should write books about this, you'd make lots of money. =D

Anyway, i'm just gonna go chill and wait for kevin to get home from work, i sent him an email apologizing for my dress being fuschia lol.

~Amy

I hate stuff

2004-02-24T18:36:53Z

I hate a lot of things right now.. i'm just pissed.. and i'm liket aking it out on people that prolly dont deserve it... like my mom i bithced at her cuz she won't take me prom dress shopping this week... or to get my cartiledge in my ear pierced, or to get my tattoo... come to think of it, she won't do much for me, shes a lazy bitch that sits on her ass all day and watches TV... i'm lucky if she buys food to eat. I bitched at Kevin a lot today too, but i bitch at him all the time... today he has work at 2 decided that getting a haircut was more important than me... whatever, it probably is, but it just seemed wrong at the time. so he just dropped me off at home... he parked and got out of his car and asked if he could come in, but he only did it cuz i was mad... but i told him he couldn't come in and to go get a haircut. it sounds mean written, but i said it in a nice tone of voice, because i knew i was being a selfish brat by just expecting him to hang out with me everyday before he goes to work... so my mom told me i'm a loser with no social life and that i'm a waste in society, that was awfully nice of her.. don't you think? i'm going to pretend it was compliment instead of throwing things, like bricks, at her. because that may be illegally.. i'm not sure... but just to be safe. I have a swimming meeting, and after that i'm calling jess to see if she wants to go out looking at dresses with me... my mom told me i can't buy anything without her approval... but fuck her... if i find something i'm gonna buy it whether she likes it or not...

Wildwood after prom

2004-02-20T04:17:37Z

OK! so today my mom made reservations for me after prom, yay. and since i agreed not to room with anyone my dad said he'll pay for me and kevie ahahha. You know how parents normally want you to room with a bunch of people or not go at all? so you don't have wild after prom sex? yea, well my parents did the opposite to me. I asked if i could room with ariel/date and jess/pete and they were like, you and kevin aren't going to have any FUN *wink* if you room with other people, we'll pay if you just go with kevin. i was like wtf? and then they were like, look heres a room with a king size bed and a jacuzzi, you guys should stay here... and then i was still like wtf?! and i started to get scared so i walked away. but my mom made reservations today, which is cool... but whats not cool is that kevin didn't even ask his parents if he could go..i hope he can, cuz if he can't i will kill him. with a spork. 3 times.
Anyway, so my sister got grounded for being out of control... that makes me happy... because they have never punished robin... ever. So this is like the first time she got grounded. It makes me want to point and laugh, because i haven't gotten in trouble in months.
Anyway i hate Mr. Ortiz, and soon he will learn to hate me, unless he moves my seat... do you know how fucking uncomfortable it is to sit on a stool for 45 minutes? i can't lean back or anything .. or i'd fall over...which is what i almost did in chem ahahah cuz i'm a spaz. It was cool!
not much else to say, besides i'm tired.. and have a headache. The headache that won't give up... i took like 2 naps today to try and get rid of it... but like 5 minutes after i woke up each time it came back. Stupid headache... it will die... yea, its fighting a losing battle with tylenol right now... hahahahah stupid blood vessels in my brain, when will they learn?

meh...

2004-02-19T23:50:21Z

dependent

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I think i'm dependent on Kevin... i'm lost without him... extremely lost...

Oops!

2004-02-19T03:43:58Z

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

So What? i've wished death on a couple people... and had sex a couple times.... and i'm an atheist... and suddenly i'm the scum of the earth... i object

Valentines Day =D

2004-02-15T17:53:02Z

It wasn't so bad.. then again i have a boyfriend, whos awesome. Well i don't remember the last time i updated, so lets just start from Friday. Kevin brought me flowers in 1st period, it was so cute, and everyone in the class was like... awwww =D i was shocked, i didn't see it coming, at all. But after kevin left to go back to his class, my english teacher went off on like a 20 minute tangent about how she never got a valentines day present till she got married. She said the boys would always break up with her right before valentines day.. ahahahah she was sooo jealous, and told me that i should marry kevin =/ shes crazy. Anyway, nothing else really interesting happened on friday... my dad got me these pretty yellow roses with orange edges... they were different anfd exciting, and look good with the red ones . Moving on..... Saturday was boring until around 5:15... was text messaging Andrew for a while, but he stopped texting me back because he doesn't have free text messaging... oh well. So at around 5:15 kevin came to get mee.. it was cute.. he was all dressed uppp.. but so was i.. and then we went out somewhere fancy to eat... oh man he spends too much money on me.. its awful. One day i'm gonna pay him back for all of it. We went into the bathrooms just to see how nice they were...they were sooo nice. They looked more expensive then my entire house. My steak was 21 dollars... how ridiculous is that? it was good... but i don't think it was worth 21 dollars...After that we went to rent a movie and we went back to kevins house. Everyone at his house was asleep.. and after the movie we just sat by his fireplace and it was cool... I ended up sleeping over by accident cuz we kinda fell asleep hahaha My parents weren't mad at me though, i dunno about his parents, they were both gone when me and kevin woke up the next morning. i Guess i'll find out later =/

No More Swimming.. ever

2004-02-10T23:34:22Z

Swimming ended on saturday with GMCs... wooo i never have to swim again.. its kind of exciting =D now i'm kinda nervous about next saturday, its valentine days and kevin won't tell me where we're going!!!

Swimming= Over

2004-02-07T01:44:55Z

Tomorrow, after GMCs, swimming is officially over... nice...alls i have to do is swim 4 short events, and i'm done...FOREVER with swimming. and its not even the kind of thing i can say, it was nice while it lasted, because it was sheer torture... the only thing that kept me there were carol AJ caitlin johnny and andrew for the most part. ANYWAY today was the last practice, it was kinda gay as first, me and carol made one comment about coaches sister,rachel, not having a college education, and coach flipped out on us. But eventually she was like... ya know i'm sorry i flipped it wasn't that serious, etc etc. But THEN ( this is the good part) she told us she doesn't like nichelle ,Burrito, or how she kisses her ass.. ahahahahah and how nichelle always lies to us about being so close to her. and that she only goes to "captain" Ginas house because she is paid to tutor her. ahahaha SO GOOD!yea but rachel flipped out on us later, how the hell cares, no one likes her anyway, ahahahah. she called me a bitch with an awful attitude, and i was like ah ahahaha yea i know. shes such a loser, and coach was like, rachel your out of hand, get on the bus... i am SOOO bored right now i dunno where the hell kevin is, and i haven't known for the past 3 days, hes like refused to hang out with me and tomorrow i'm gonna be at swimming GMCs for 10 hours... fun fun. i don't wanna get up early =( cooommee oonnn its a saturday!!! Maybe i'll go drive my car off the nearest cliff so i dont have to go... =D

baychuks @ 2004-02-03T17:50:00

2004-02-03T22:50:50Z

is it possible for a cell phone screen to freeze? cuz i think mine just did... thats gay... i guess my phone can't handle sending and receiving a text message at the same time... hmm